I have a serious case of the blues. Things just arent going our way, or at least thats how it feels right now. Im trying to stay positive becasue I really feel that helps, its hard though. Im very emotional. Sometimes I feel like everything in my life and everything I do is so difficult, Im probably just feeling sorry for myself. Some people just have it so easy and I dont feel like Im one of those people. It could always be worse I guess and everything happens for a reason, I just keep telling myself that.

Today was the most emotionally exhausting day, work was insanely busy and I feel like I just have alot of family stuff going on and it is really throwing me through a loop. I joked to Jay that with only a handful of family members left there really should be no problems, but like Jay said 3 or 300 there will always be issues when it comes to family. He is the best when it comes to this stuff, I can tend to overreact or take things too personally and he is a good meter to see how I am reacting. Over the years Ive learned to bounce things off of him first before reacting too quickly and I think that really helps. He is really the best thing that has ever happened to me. Everything we do and go through just brings us closer together (cheesy, I know) I feel like although I have been somewhat unlucky in life (just in my past really) I am so lucky in love, that makes up for it. What doesnt kill you will only make you stronger, at least thats what Kanye says :). I had wanted to start Yoga tonight but I was so tired when I got home that i decided to skip it, instead we ordered pizza and I pigged out. I really should have gone to yoga instead, its such a nice way to relax, Im sure I would have felt much better than I did after the pizza. Im still going to do my normal hour at the gym, I want to add a couple of classes a week and if Im doing my regular thing there wont be so much pressure. Im going to go to bed and end this day and hopefully tomorrow will be better.