I guess Im going to give this yet another try. I'm blogging about once per year at this point, so I guess I'll see. Things have been REALLY slow at work lately and I thought I could blog to keep myself busy. Ive been searching online for other peoples blogs that I could get into but havent really found anything that interested me. I was looking for some diet and fitness blogs but didnt find anything. Then it occured to me that I could keep my own. I dont know that I really want to focus on diet and fitness so much as just keep a journal. I really dont even intend for anyone to read my blogs. I think its just more of a healthy outlet for me. The reason I have been looking for the diet and fitness blogs is that lately I have really made a big turn around in my life. I quit smoking (again)and ever since then I have been so focused on health, I have never been this way before. I feel like my body is craving only nutritious things. I only want to eat fruits and vegetables and Im back to exercising 5 days a week. I've been taking a mulitvitamin, drinking tons of water, cut down on my caffeine ALOT and have been getting 7-8 hours of sleep a night. I even completely cut red meat and pork out of my diet.(although that is for other reasons and a whole other blog) This is a stark contrast to my usual 5 hours of sleep a night, 5-6 cups of coffee a day and not going to the gym but rather sitting on my ass and stressing about how I should have gone. I honestly feel the best I have ever felt. The doctor also put me on an anti anxiety med for some of the anxiety I was experiencing. I started to feel like my fears were starting to take over my life and were stopping me from doing alot of the things I wanted to do. The medication changed my life. Its really crazy. I never thought I was depressed until I started taking it. Now I know I definitly was. I feel like a new person and could never imagine going back to the way I was before. Its not a miracle drug and I still have some things to work on but its really given me a nice shove in the right direction. I have some other health issues going on right now, but I'm feeling positive that every thing will be okay. I need to get some more testing done and then I'll know for sure. Im really not worried at this point though. I tend to worry more about Jay when it comes to these things because he gets so much more upset about it then I do. So I try not to worry him too much especially when its really not a big deal. Im actually home sick today with the worst cold Ive had in a few years. I stayed home yesterday too. To add insult to injury I also have a stiff neck that is so painful. I have been so miserable for the last week but I finally feel as though Im starting to improve this morning. Im starting to get a little stir crazy though. (hence the latest blog entry). Well I guess thats it for right now. I really feel like I could go on for ever, hopefully thats a sign that i will actually continue to update my blog. Like I said before I really feel it will be a healthy outlet for me. We'll see I guess.